Maybe I’m a terrible person for this, but I really don’t want to attend my grandfather’s funeral today. His passing was a blessing for him and us, since he was in so much pain and just wasting away for so long. I’d rather grieve on my own, accept his loss, and move on with my life. I don’t want to be around my mourning family, bc I feel bad that I’m not mourning as much as they are. I don’t want the sympathetic smiles of complete strangers. I just want to cry on my boyfriend’s shoulder and go back to work.